Discouraged/Encouraged

I get so discouraged sometimes, I guess we all have our moments. I feel like I have let myself down with all of the cheats since I have started this diet. I was sooooo motivated before I started, bought my scale for myself and to weigh my food so I know I am getting the right amount, planned my meals and snacks for the week, it was going so great. Me not meeting my goal is my own fault and I accept responsibility for that. I want to find that motivation again, I don't know where it went. The only thing I am sticking with it seems like is just drinking my water. I haven't given in to having a soda since 1/13, that for me is a big accomplishment. I still have several months to meet my overall goal of 60lbs by Memorial Day, but it would be wonderful if I could get there before then. I get great advice and support from all of my facebook friends, especially the ones at affordablhcgdiet. (look the page up on FB and you will see they are there for you always no matter what) My kids, John see me starting to slip up and they get onto me, when I have a loss no matter how big or small my youngest gives me a high five (she is 11) and says yaaayyyy mommy great job, are we going to walk today? My other two and John don't get as excited as she does but still have encouraging things to say. Someone mentioned on one of my statuses that she can relate and realizes how bad her food addiction is.....well I am the same way. The cravings is what gets to me the worse, because I crave when I am not hungry.  I will stay strong for a little bit and most of the time the craving will go away.....but then there are the times that it doesn't go away and I give in to temptaion....just a little bit won't hurt.....well it does. I need to figure out a way to turn those cravings around and find something to satisfy the bad that I want to eat and turn it in to healthy. I know once I get to the last phase of the diet, I can eat pretty much anything I want, just portion control and I can't eat that way everyday. I ordered some "sweets" from the Walden Farms website and some other things that I think may help a lot with the cravings and help turn me around. Especially the chocolate and carmel dip.....it will feel like a cheat but it is really healthy for me. I will keep everyone posted on how that works, but I got the idea from others on the "loser support page" I was so excited when I finally figured out that we can have anything from Walden Farms on our diet, some more good ideas from everyone on how to use them as well. I haven't weighed myself this morning but as of yesterday I have lost a total of 10.8 pounds and 3 inches around my waist. My jeans are getting looser, and John has noticed that. People at work....ehhhh..they notice the loss around my face.....but I wear a shirt and a big hoodie and a coat....soooo they will be in for a big shock when spring arrives!! Hope everyone has an amazing day and stay strong!!!!

Finally Back on Track

Sorry I missed yesterday..but I'm back today. Well after my cheat Wednesday night I gained 1.8 pounds Thursday am on the scale, this morning down .2...CHEATING IS SOOO NOT WORTH IT!!! Anyways great day today, tempted but John is telling me no and so are the kids..LOL   Took a relaxing detox bath. Feeling good tonight for a change. Taking Nicole prom dress shopping tomorrow, going to get me some vitamins, and going to Costco to buy some things for me in bulk (chicken breasts, fruits....etc) If it doesn't rain Nicole has softball practice, so I can do my 30 min walk on the track, it it rains then she goes to the batting cages and I do my walk on the treadmill. People at work are starting to notice the little bit of weight I have lost...and that is just an amazing and awesome feeling. I am losing my "muffin top"...Ashley noticed tonight and said something...then she gave me a double high five.  John is very positive even if I have a loss.....I really love this diet and the support I am getting from everyone on facebook and from John and the kids. 

Well...down .6 this morning..whoo hoo!!!!!  Love this diet. Today was a little better...I am praying and hoping we got our plumbing problem fixed.  They came and cleaned out the septic tank...there was some blockage in the lines but the tank wasn't full.....fingers and toes crossed!!!  Anyways, I skipped lunch (big no-no) and I slipped with my dinner too. We had meatloaf (which was on protocol) but I had mashed taters too.....uuggghhh I don't think I am ever going to learn. Hopefully it won't hurt me too bad on the scale.  It's sooooo hard to resist John's home made mashed taters....well back on track tomorrow and lots of water to flush out all the stuff I shouldn't have had today. I know I will be able to go back to eating other foods when I reach my goal weight, but the big difference will be self control and portion sizes and exercise. Something I haven't done in the past. That's the best part of this diet, you lose the weight, get in shape and the most important thing is you learn to eat healthy and self-control. Everyone has it in them, just waiting to come out. Nobody can change our habits except for ourselves...we have to take that first step, then decide to stick with it. And with this group and diet...it's all about motiviation and support...AND everyone slips and falls off protocol...we just pick each other back up and help each other get back on track. We all know the consequences when we cheat....and we all admit it when we have. My kids are even fussing at me when I think about eating something I'm not supposed too..LOL  Austin looked at Johnn tonight and says....John control your woman, she's not supposed to eat that...LOL  I love my kids for being supportive, and I love John for being supportive as well. Until tomorrow my fellow losers.....Stay strong...YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!

Good Day Turned VERY BAD!!!

Ok so today started out pretty good, dropped .4 this morning. So I have officially lost 10lbs since 1/14 when I started the diet. I don't sweat the small losses, I look at the overall loss towards my goal. Anyways it's great to be back on track. Took Nicole to the batting cages and had fun with her. Came home to started dinner, put in a load of laundry...hang on to your hats....here's where the day goes straight to hell....John went in to take a detox bath...and the bathtub is about 1/4 of the way full with black water and the toilet overflowed AGAIN!!!  The landlord just spent $400 to replace the toilet last week because the plumber said that's what it was. Now we can't use any of the 3 bathrooms, and flush anyways until he comes out in the morning. My laundry is sitting in the washing machine yes, with the water still in it..(EWWWWWW) I have 3 kids that I am going to need to remind NOT to fulsh the toilet and if they use it DON'T put toilet paper in the toilet. So the trash cans in the bathrooms have BIG trash bags in them to put the toilet paper in, and thank God I have a big can of lysol to spray and kill the germs. Stress causes you to stall or gain.....well I guess I'd better get ready!!!   Anyways good luck to all the other "losers" out there with the scale tomorrow morning....maybe you'll lose what I gain...LOL

I started this journey on 1/14/2012 thanks to a friend who mentioned affordablehcgdiet to me. It may seem impossible or crazy to follow, but I have lost 9lbs and 2" from around my belly!!! The support you get from everyone on facebook is amazing. They keep you motivated, we check in daily with each other (not required) pick each other up and keep each other going. There is always someone there to answer your questions. I am new to blogging...so bear with me until I get the hang of it please..LOL  I will post a link to my page later (if I can) but you can find more information about this AMAZING diet at www.affordablehcgdiet.com. It explains everything, and if you have any questions just like them on Facebook and ask anything you want to know!!!